change the world

“I don’t wanna change the world.
I wanna be there with you.
I wanna see this through,
And maybe that will change the world”

– Ryan Scarberry,  The House You Grew Up In … go buy the album… do it!

This song has quickly become one of those that have crept into my subconscious and comes out every now and then when I’m sitting around and daydreaming about life and what is coming up next. It’s one of those songs that I can really relate to. Well, I can relate to alot of Ryan’s songs, but that’s another blog.

I grew up being told, by parents, well intentioned adults, friends, etc., that I was “special” and had a bright future. Mostly because I was adopted. So there’s this whole stigma on adoptees that we must have been “saved” for some greater epic purpose and that does one of two things – makes you try harder or makes you just not try at all. I did both at varying parts of my life, alternating between overachiever and underachiever. And with mixed results. Sometimes when I wasn’t trying at all, good things happened. Sometimes when I was trying way too hard, disaster.

So fast forward to the past few years of my life and I am so jazzed up over how everything in my life up until now is really coming together and I can clearly (mostly) see how everything I’ve done and all the colossal screw ups and heartbreaks and the bad decisions and the good decisions all work together for good. Because I do love God and I do feel called to His purpose and I’m going to see this through. And maybe that will change the world. Even if it’s just a handful of peoples’ worlds… sometimes it’s epic to touch just one person’s life at a time. I feel like that’s what Jesus would do.  You know, if He came to earth and stuff.

I don’t know what the future holds. I make my plans and I give them up to a Grace and Love I only begin to understand. Many of my friends from my previous lives don’t get this at all. They’re all wow Robin’s got religion – how crazy is that? And yea, I laugh about it.

And all I can do is smile and sing a little tune and pray you see what I see from where I’m standing…

and maybe that will change the world.

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